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as I age, I discover
all the things I’ve lost
by not appreciating them
for me, life has been
a sea of voices
tidal waves telling me
what to do and
how to do it well

I’ve learned to seek answers on my own
and carve my own paths in the sand
(even if they are dead ends)

today, I sat on the lake’s shore
and watched people carry on their lives
to their jobs on Mondays
or their dreams on crescent moons
I wonder if I’ve ever dreamt the very same ones

The water crashes in
rinses the footprints clean
the sandcastles get rebuilt in the rubble
and I can’t stop thinking about
how life is like a shell,
echoing our heartbeat back to us
reminding just how alive we are
and I ache, realizing both that
life is so beautiful and life is so short

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a song comes on that reminds you
of everything you used to feel
and when it’s over, you play it again

funny how memories are debossed on music
like grooves in a record
and we swear we’ll never replay old mistakes
until we do

98

350 degrees
bake for 8-10 minutes
until golden at the edges

the smell of cookies would wander through rooms
dance us through nostalgia
and we’d count down the minutes until
we could burn the tips of our tongues
by choice

as a child I’d imagine all the things I’d get up to
all the cookies I could eat without
permission granted
if only I was older

today, I’m on the precipice of the rest of my life
and consumed by what the right choice is
or even if there is one
I recall that sense of fearlessness
of burning myself and not thinking twice
I could use some of that bravery now

gone swimming

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Hard decisions are really freaking hard. I’ve recently had to make an important choice myself: Will I go over the deep end and try something terrifying, unsure and potentially life-changing, or stay in the shallow pool where it’s safe and guaranteed I (probably) won’t drown?

This sort of self-reflection is so tough to swallow. A year ago last year, you felt so blessed to be in this position and now you’re seeking something bigger. Why can’t you be happy with what you have? Because you’ve grown. And you’re still growing.

It could be as big as a career change or even as everyday as going out when you’d usually stay in. Whatever it is, there is no wrong answer to that tough choice. Though, I will say this: I can’t tell you about the nights I stayed in. Even times when I went out and was bored by the company, at least I had a funny story to tell.

Staying on the shallow side isn’t a bad thing – just don’t ever think it’s all there is. Even if it’s scary, even if it seems monumental, we have the rest of our lives to get it right, and maybe even a little wrong, too.
Let’s mess things up sometimes. We can forgive ourselves later.

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love,
ELLE

 

be nice to people

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Hi! Grab your coffee and let’s chat. This week felt really difficult at times, but I’m glad we’re here now. It seems like everyone has been in a mood the last few days, and perhaps that has gotten to you, too. Maybe a boss, co-worker, friend, family. Don’t sweat it. Keep in mind that people have their own lives and their own baggage to carry, and even when they display their frustrations, they aren’t always frustrated at you. You may just happen to be nearby.

In my experience, it’s easy to internalize someone else’s emotions as your own. I sure do this a lot. You don’t have to carry this weight on your shoulders. Instead, consider all the tough things going on in your life that people don’t know about. Imagine all those things are also happening to that person.

When you find yourself in moments of frustration with someone else, the most mature thing you can do is to try and understand them. Funnily enough, they’re just like you – only different. Breathe in, breathe out, and remember that thankfully, not everything is about you. Let those folks deal with their emotions on their own, and you go out there and live your life.

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love,
ELLE

 

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it’s the heat of the summer
and there’s this weight upon my sunburnt shoulder
to get everything done
cross off the to-do
the days are warmer but I don’t feel
lighter

the grace of remaining calm
when you swore things were falling apart
I’ve learned that success is in beachfront bike rides
in strawberry sorbet
in the sweat dripping down my spine

perhaps being successful is an everyday occurrence
maybe not all sweat and tears, need tears

 

 

Hi everyone! Hope your summers are going perfectly. I’ve been toying with an idea and wanted to run it past you.

Once a week, would you be interested in getting a love-letter-type newsletter from me? Each one will have some positive affirmations and reminders to take it easy like a little pep-talk, just a few hundred words to help get you through the week. Like a love letter straight to your inbox, same way you’re hearing from me now on Sundays! Would that be something you’d want to see from me? What day would be best? Let me know in the comments 🙂

Love,
ELLE