the sea, its tides
I’ve embraced the waves
because by nearly drowning
I’ve learned how to swim
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the wind carries you everywhere
that familiar scent of salt and sand
always seems to find me
every single breeze
seems to call you by name
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I think of how freedom tastes like
a crisp sparkling soda
where the sun meets sand
head meets heart
these are the places I always go
when the light shines on the back of my hands
today, especially
I remember that our paths aren’t all the same
that my skin tone is in itself, a token of value
one that grants freedom
the benefit of the doubt
a price that others often find themselves paying
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we lived in a house at the end of the street
you’d turn the corner from the main road and we were there
this delicate landmark
this home sweet home
some nights the house would creak
old pipes, my dad would say
but some nights I swore I heard voices
ghosts of me from the future
whispering to remember this part
to remember this
I’m inflicted with memory
of first steps and a porch swing
a swinging pendulum of how time passes
that limbo when a moment turns into a memory
and all you can do is just watch it leave
when will this memory taste less sour
when does it get sweeter
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you’re allowed to miss something
and not wish to have it back
at the same time.
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second place, silver trophy
a medal for doing well, but
not well enough
funny how validation weighs like
a chunk of metal around your neck
funny how time passes
seconds, ticking by
something just barely out of reach
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some nights I dream up worlds
that are so close to the one I live
I’m not always sure which one
of us is awake
my life has encountered endless open doors
and ones I’ve closed by choice
if there is some almighty power
bigger than any of us
I hope each variation of myself
is living her variation of a dream
I wonder if she’s happy
I wonder if I am
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when you win, you make a speech
thanking the ones who supported you
you’re supposed to be humble in your poise
you’re supposed to smile
there are some trophies you earn
that never have a ceremony
no round of applause
does success still count
if there is no fanfare?
at what point
does a table for one
fill a room?
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I’ve had dreams of alternate worlds
cotton candy clouds and magical hillsides
where things go upside down on thursdays
and there’s no wifi on sundays
my feet will one day plant on uneven ground
and find strength to grow
even amidst strangeness
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there are these moments
that have passed, but
never really left us
entrenched in who we are
and who we’re becoming
we drive along dirt roads,
resisting the urge to race raindrops
flying against the windshield
we see boxed birthday cake mix
and can’t justify buying it because
it’s no one’s birthday
these moments in our lives
times we did or did not
we discover profound truths
that we are defined by what
we let happen to us
that every single life has value
that every day is worth celebrating
with a boxed birthday cake