26

Being me is not enough
for someone like you.
If all my affection piled up like
an avoided accordion file,
you’d say I was too much
with no folder big enough
to carry the burden of
such an expansive heart.

I called you once, in a huff
ready to say everything I had pent up–
that you were selfish and cruel,
how dare you try to shove my wild love aside
because it was more than what you wanted.

If my worst trait was being “too much,”
then maybe it was your worst trait, too
thatย you couldn’t carry it.

I’ve read universes of books to know
someone telling you they didn’t hurt you
has no business in telling you so.

I’d yell and yell and yell
and you’d say “are you done?”
like waiting for the beep
you’d leave your message
while I sat on the line, listening
to everything you weren’t willing to hear
but it’s different, coming from you

All you’d say was “my, me, I,”
and all I’d hear was the dial tone.

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40 thoughts on “26

    1. Lol! This piece was actually inspired by seeing someone receive a phone call that upset her, but she didn’t respond back just sat on the her side of the phone, aghast. Didn’t happen to me–but I guess it’s interesting to think that I did! ๐Ÿ™‚ Thanks for commenting.

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    1. Thank you for your support, Philip! I used to always write prose, but I’ve found that condensing the content really adds more strength into the piece. Thank you for your vote! And yes, I am still in Toronto. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  1. Just got out of something like this. But in my case it was, “you think too much… You’re dramatic” and I mean I’m not. But this was incessant. Every time I didn’t follow suit or agree, I was ‘thinking too much’.

    This gave me that feeling ai haven’t been able to exactly put into words yet. Thanks.

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    1. It’s a lot about how these sorts of people often make you feel like you’re “too much”, but is that really the issue? Is it not that they feel “too little”? What is the worse of the two? Thank you for commenting!

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      1. I actually had a conversation with an older friend today.

        He told me exactly the same, he was straight saying, “look this person is intimidated, and they’re breaking you down coz they feel less.”

        Makes sense if it comes from two different people I’d say. ๐Ÿ˜ฒ

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      2. Absolutely! I agree. I do think there is a dynamic between people–those who give and those who take. It’s important to understand how we should be focusing on doing both.

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  2. shoniessky

    I had to come back and read this.. you write with such style and beauty.. what stuck with me, was: ( my worst trait was being โ€œtoo much,โ€
    then maybe it was your worst trait, too
    thatย you couldnโ€™t carry it.

    ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘

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  3. Star

    Your poems always have such a clarity of emotion that they almost sting to read and I absolutely enjoyed every single one that I’ve had the chance to. I voted for your essay and will remind myself to keep voting. Hope you win! ๐Ÿ™‚

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  4. darkmuseluine

    ohh…. I can relate so much to this… the frustration , the pain its just too much…. I am going through this struggle as well and it hurts so bad…

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