All my love had always been held
in callused touch.
I was used to unreturned calls;
unopened text messages;
laughing at jokes that weren’t funny;
pretending not to be hurt when
he said he wanted casual,
as if me taking us seriously
was a silly miscalculation.

I’d stay awake nights
the bags under my eyes
heavy with tears
like lost luggage,
a carousel spinning away.

Every pair of hands upset me to the point I thought
I had made a grand mistake,
thinking there was not a single soft pair of hands
in the world meant for me.

I had been so used to being shut out
that your warmth and tenderness terrified me.

But you didn’t leave–you said,
“Where else would I rather be,
than here, with you,
as you have so graciously made room for me?”

66 thoughts on “24

  1. Damn girl! “Lost luggage” was something I can never ever come up with ever. “Single soft pair of hands” just stole my heart and then you had to worsen my wait for next Sunday by adding on to the last lines.

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  2. I really liked this one. Esp. : ‘ I had been so used to being shut out
    that your warmth and tenderness terrified me. ‘ I have actually felt that way in a relationship. It’s when the other person chooses to shower you with love and tenderness when they feel like, at their convenience while other times they’re too preoccupied with the ‘more important things’ in their life.

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  3. Men hurt women and vice versa
    Thank God who always has for us room to rest
    Peace and joy will dwell in your heart,
    From Him you will always receive the best.
    Thanks for sharing this post today.
    It touched my heart and I love its sound
    Now I’m gonna vote to support your essay
    Coz it seems as if we have lost some ground.

    Take care Elle 😉

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      1. Yes, I just saw that! Everytime I’m feeling discouraged, you are always there to support me. I can’t tell you how much I appreciate you! ❤ Thank you.


  4. Loved this poem! So relatable. My fav part (as many others have already said) was the part about the luggage carousel. What a unique metaphor. Best of luck on your essay! My mom immigrated here from the Philippines so I know exactly how you were brought up!

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  5. Hey! THANK YOU For the voting reminder! I’ve had company in for the past few days and have been MIA, but I had intended to vote daily!!! I am so sorry and I just voted again!!!

    I swear. Your poetry reads like my life/past so often. It’s uncanny. You speak Your journey (which often is mine as well) with such powerful simplicity and elegance. I’d become CERTAIN there was no one for me and the choices were being alone or just the dance You speak of. Thank God I was wrong. Thank You for Your beautiful words…I love coming here. I SOOOO hope You win! Huge hugs and Cheers!!! 💖

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  6. Morning Elle, Your essay has become a daily part of my life for the moment 😊 I keep the link up as my reminder. No need to comment on my site. I just wish you luck is all. Let us know how it all turns out. Take care, suzanne ❤️

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  7. Lovely poem as always. Even if you’re indulging in fiction I enjoy the emotional clarity of them.

    And I’m voting for your essay as much as I can! (Very busy this week so I can’t do it as much as I’d like.) Good luck with that. It seems like you’ve got a lot of support.

    Thanks for the likes. I definitely don’t like your posts for any intended reciprocation but the fact that you find some of my stuff worth a like is awesome and has not gone unnoticed.

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    1. Thank you for your kind words! I think that it’s important to have that reciprocation, because that’s how this community thrives! I appreciate so much that you take the time to help me. ❤

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  8. Good luck with your essay! (you don’t need to leave a comment on my blog. :)That site was also very interesting to check out.)
    Hope it all goes well.
    And I enjoyed reading this poem, poignantly written, and relatable! Beautiful.

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